let's try this journaling thing again

i should update the subtitle but can't think of anything interesting sounding yet. i may not be 30 something anymore but here i am ... still lainey in the (klang) valley. 40-something something sounds too blah so this will have to stick until i dream up something else. 

i needed a medium to express my thoughts. in a form that isn't private but doesn't need or seek to be acknowledged/liked. i feel that blogging is perfect in the sense that its just the right amount of public that keeps a writer in check from being too extremely self indulgent in the off-chance that others may wander into the space. most social media these days (fb, twitter) - their main purpose is to engage others even if some people want to use it as a repository of life events. i find myself editing or curating a post for public consumption. the writing becomes self-conscious and thoughts filtered. 

as i inch closer to 50 - i think it's timely to start journaling again, putting down thoughts to paper. i wish i had the discipline to start at the beginning of the covid lockdowns. 2 years on - it appears that the world is healing and moving on. so today i commit to write a paragraph a day, everyday about life here in the valley. xx